Faith(:

2012-10-28T13:16:00.004+08:00

http://imonlylil.blogspot.com

2012-02-15T23:29:00.002+08:00

I know i haven't been updating this space for the longest time.
I just needed time to sort out my feelings.
But more like its running away. Hur hur.

I haven been to amplify for a month,
i haven been to church for two weeks.
I have been on my own for the past 3 months.

And really i dont know what am i suppose to do now.
I am just living life as i go by.

Like i have been having so much stupid f up time at work.
Sometimes i dont know who can i even turn to.
I tried going to God, but i just feel like there isnt anyone there.

I just wish to get out of here.

And yes my reason for living this place is just to start anew.
A place where people dont know me.
If its possible, i just want to stay in Australia.
And not come back.

You would think i am stupid , stupid to just run away
because my ex boyfriend is here.
But believe me, its already half a year,
i am trying to even get on my own feet.

Unless you have been through what i have been through,
stop judging.
Just thinking about the people you love just leaving you one by one,
its very heartbreaking.

First its my dad, then my ex boyfriend then my mum.

You know its very saddening to get texts/calls from my mother.
you know how sad it is because she wants to come back
because people pity us ?

You dont come back just because people pity us.
You come back because you want to fulfill your responsibility as a mother.

You want to have your time, but how long you want?
Its been 3 months.
Where have you been ?
You know what i have to go through everyday ?

Dad gives you the money, but have you even give us at all ?
without me asking you about it ?
I know you want to get well, but you are so impatient as to just giving yourself a month to recover.
You need the patience and perseverance.

How many excuses have you said, to the point that i say i understand,
which already mean i have given up.

Stop making excuses for youself.
You got your own sickness, but its not the end of the world.

You know i feel like shouting and to ask you to wake up?
but i dont want to hurt you, i rather i be hurt then you or anyone else get hurt.
I just wish you will wake up.

I just want a happy family this year for my 21st,
is it possible?
I guess not.

2012-01-02T09:29:00.000+08:00

LIFE DOES NOT REWIND.

On 29 November 2011, I attended the media preview showcasing the launch of the anti-drug online gaming challenge with a group of bloggers at Central Narcotics Bureau (CNB). This challenge is jointly organised by The National Council Against Drug Abuse (NCADA) and CNB.

What is in the file ?

See so much effort is put into the magazine!

This is Emily , one of the few friends that i make at the launch (:

This is Xueling, met her previously at an event but didnt manage to talk, she is super friendly!

Screenshot of the game.

So i got used like 3 minutes to get it done!
Wanna stand a chance to win an ipad 2 or ifly vouchers?

Simply hover to their fb page and stand a chance to win.

If you realize, from the screenshot, there isnt like any back or undo button.
And why is it entitled "The Right Choice" is also for a reason.

This isn't some game that you can blindly play and get to the final destination.
True it doesnt really reflect everyday life decision.
But there is something we can learn from it,
and that is somethings in life, because of one decision you make,
it will affect the people around you .

And this game has taught me that we really have to make wise and careful decisions.

Okay, after talking for so long,
how can i forget the people who are involve in this game?

Introducing the creators of this game!

The Right Choice was created by two students from Singapore Polytechnic.

2011-12-22T12:41:00.000+08:00

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2011-09-03T02:11:00.003+08:00

Been trying to get my life back.
But in the end, sometimes i dont know why something keep messing it up.
Call it like kan cheong that kills me .

No one reads this blog.
But i am NOT attached.
I really people at eden , thats why i went to see everyone.

I am not like showing off that i got a break.
I am not showing off i am fine on my own.
And definitely not to show that i have a boyfriend
or at the process of getting a guy.

I have no faith anymore in relationship or love.
I am so scared of stepping into one.
The fear is so scary that i am so fiercely independent.

I realise that no matter how much you want to rely on people,
somehow or rather, they just crash it.
The only hope they just use it to crash it .

I am that scared now.
I do things on my own now.

I go home on my own,
i go town on my own.
The only thing that i cant eat on my own.

But i will learn.

One step at a time.

2011-08-29T14:18:00.000+08:00

You think i am happy because
there are so many emotions that i chose not to show.

Hello G, i wonder if you read my blog.
I think this will be the last time
i will put photo of us on this blog.

Let me say a few words before i end.

I am sorry that things have to be like that,
I am sorry that i have to let you feel all these emotions
I am sorry for everything that happen.

After this text message , sad to say .
Even though i wish things didnt ended the way it ended now.

I love you and
I wish the best for you.

2011-08-23T09:36:00.005+08:00

Exams in a few hours time,
and i just woke up from a terrible dream.
Its a dream that happen twice.
Its freaky.

I woke up crying my hearts out at 6 in the morning.
My heart is aching like mad as i type this.
I browse through all the screenshots of
our msn conversation.

I browse through the pictures we took in the past.
And why are we so happy just a few months ago.
But now, all i see in you is just nothing.

What have you changed to ?
The Gabriel i know wasnt so cruel as
to leave someone waiting there for 4 hours
and refuse to come down.
Even when i was sick?

Even when i wasnt in the mood,
how long have i make you wait ?
An hour at most ?

Even when you plead to let you see me ,
Even though i was really angry and upset.
Where have this person gone to ?

Tell me where have i done wrong,
tell me where have this relationship gone wrong.

How many chances have i given you ,
as compared to the one last chance i have ask for ?

You know , i took 3 weeks to build up my defenses,
but it just took you 3 mins to tear it all down.
Am i stupid?

You are enjoying yourself with work, with friends.
And of cos , where was i when you were having fun.
Is it so easy to just let go of this relationship 3 years ago?

I hate to wake up everyday and have this urge to cry,
then i have to go into the bathroom to cry
because i dont want anyone to hear.

I hate to be happy and strong outside in front of people,
and then cry myself to sleep every night.

I hate my life right now, and i hate it then you dont even
give a fucking shit about it.

2011-08-22T22:49:00.004+08:00

As i am writing this,
my tummy is like a washing machine.
I have been to the shit house countless time.
I hate it.

My nose is not helping, because it was block
for almost the whole day ,
and now it decides to run.

Woke up , and puking breakfast out.
Know what, my life sucks.

But the person that i love,
thinks that i am bluffing just to seek attention.

Think whatever you want,
it seems that everything change once
you dont love someone.

It doesnt matter anymore.

2011-08-20T13:40:00.005+08:00

People are often unreasonable, illogical, and self-centered;
Forgive them anyway.

If you are kind,
people may accuse you of selfish ulterior motives;
Be kind anyway.

If you are successful,
you will win some false friends and some true enemies;
Succeed anyway.

If you are honest and frank,
people may cheat you;
Be honest and frank anyway.

What you spend years building,
someone could destroy overnight.
Build anyway.

If you find serenity and happiness,
they may be jealous;
Be happy anyway.

The good you do today,
people will often forget tomorrow;
Do good anyway.

Give the world the best you have,
and it may never be enough;
Give the best you've got anyway.

You see, in the final analysis
it is between you and God;
it was never between you and them anyway.

- Mother Teresa

Love racing? Join the #Cars2Race and stand a chance to win a pair of tickets to Italy!

2011-08-16T14:39:00.000+08:00

Love racing? Join the #Cars2Race and stand a chance to win a pair of tickets to Italy!

2011-08-14T18:00:00.003+08:00

The only 2 songs that get me emotional are by Adele.
Namely , Someone Like You and Dont You Remember.

Imagine if you are still in love with a guy ,
but now he is happily married and with a kid.

Whenever i listen to this song,
i would feel super emotional,
because if one day this were to happen to me,
i dont know how to move on with my life.

I am not a marriage wrecker ,
so dont ask me to go ruin someone's marriage.

And another , is Dont You Remember.

Its like a plea to see that person.
Totally feel like now.

Sound so pathetic.
But its not as easy to let go just like that.

And on a random note,
To make you feel my love is pretty nice too.

Ohwell, i shall not say anymore.
Its getting too emotional in here.

KTHXBYE.

2011-08-14T17:25:00.001+08:00

People are afraid of themselves, of their own reality;their feelings most of all.

People talk about how great love is, but that’s bullshit.

LOVE HURTS. Feelings are disturbing.

People are taught that pain is evil and dangerous.

How can they deal with love if they’re afraid to feel?

Pain is meant to wake us up.

People try to hide their pain. But they’re wrong.

Pain is something to carry, like a radio.

You feel your strength in the experience of pain.

It’s all in how you carry it. That’s what matters.

Pain is a feeling. Your feelings are a part of you. Your own reality.

If you feel ashamed of them, and hide them, you’re letting society destroy your reality.

You should stand up for your right to feel your pain.

-JIM MORRISON (1943 – 1971)

2011-08-14T01:03:00.008+08:00

Hello!

I was invited to Marigold Peel Fresh 25th Anniversary!
It was held at Butterfactory and 987 was there too (:

Door Gifts.

The bar!
Drinks that were available,
I like the lime and the orange!

Shane and Rozz, they are super good looking in real life!

Justin!

The MC for the show. (:

What's a party without a cake?

With pretty Joey!
The cake that was given to us!
Super cute right !

The bloggers that went there!

After which, we went to chill at mankansutra for chicken wings before heading home!

2011-08-13T00:32:00.003+08:00

Broke the news to mum,
she was so sweet!
I almost cried!

Mum: Why didnt you tell me ?
Me: Tell you for what, also cant do anything else?
Mum: At least i wont mention his name, so that you wouldnt be so sad?
Me: No la!

Wah i almost cried.
Thank You Jesus for giving me her.

2011-08-12T16:38:00.007+08:00

Nuffnang is giving out 80 gala tickets to watch CARS 2!

Synopsis of the movie:

Star race car Lightning McQueen (voice of Owen Wilson) and his best friend, the incomparable tow truck Mater (voice of Larry the Cable Guy), jump start a new adventure to exotic lands stretching across the globe in “Cars 2.”

The duo are joined by a hometown pit crew from Radiator Springs when they head overseas for the first-ever World Grand Prix, a race to determine the world’s fastest car. But the road to the championship is filled with plenty of potholes, detours and bombshells when Mater is mistakenly ensnared in an intriguing escapade of his own: international espionage.

Mater finds himself torn between assisting Lightning McQueen in the high-profile race and towing the line in a top-secret mission orchestrated by master British super spy Finn McMissile (voice of Michael Caine) and the stunning rookie field spy Holley Shiftwell (voice of Emily Mortimer).

Mater’s action-packed journey leads him on an explosive chase through the streets of Japan, Italy, France and England, trailed by his friends and watched by the whole world. The fast-paced fun includes a colourful new cast of cars, boats, trains and airplanes— complete with menacing villains and international racing competitors.

A Spy is never a real Spy without a Spy name.

So guess what my spy name would be(:

I think the common ones would be like Jane Doe, John Joe.
As read in like comics and use in the commercial world today.
So cliche isn't it ?
But i guess i would want to be called, Avery .

Why?!

Avery because it seems very cool,
think Maggie Q kind of cool!
And i am not a very girly girl to begin with .
So i guess Avery seems perfect!

No surname because i think i would want this surname
as simple and not so suspicious!

“Catch Cars 2 movie starting from 25^th August 2011 and join the official Disney Studios Singapore Facebook & Twitter page!”

2011-08-11T15:27:00.003+08:00

Maybe i should do it.
But some part of me is still unwilling.

But i think God has been showering me with lots of love.
He gave me friends,
community that is there for me.

But i guess even if i still have all those company ,
i think the part of the letting go still depend on me.

2011-08-10T00:05:00.006+08:00

My pictures on my computer are getting way emotional.
It used to be happy couples, and talking about love.
The happy times.
Now?
Its all about sadness, hurt , tiredness.

Been finding myself crying at night,
been finding myself not wanting to wake up at all.
Because all i feel is just sadness, and hurt.

Now i cant tell the difference,
if i am showering or tearing in the bathroom.
Because everything looks the same.

Its very tiring to go to school,
and pretend to be okay ,
but anytime, you can just crumble.

I just wish someone that can understand.
Everyone i talk to , doesn't seem to.
They only empathize
And i don't want that.

I want someone to come up.
Tell me, i understand because i have been through what you been through
will you let me take you on a journey to get yourself back?

But no one will,
i shall not write too many stuff here.
Gonna journal it instead.

Maybe one day i will be brave enough to tell the whole world
what kind of entries are they.

2011-08-09T15:50:00.000+08:00

I don’t understand how you can smile all day long but cry yourself to sleep at night. How pictures never change but the people in them do. How your best friend can become your worst enemy, or how strange it is when your worst enemy turns into your best friend. How forever turns into a few short months that you’d do almost anything to get back. How you can let go of something you once said you couldn’t live without. How even though you know something is best for you, it just hurts the same. How the people you once wanted to spend every second with you, think a few minutes of their time is too much to spare. How people make promises despite knowing how common it is for promises to be broken. How people can erase you from their lives just because it’s easier than working things out.

2011-08-08T15:32:00.003+08:00

I want to travel and eat ice cream out of a cone and not think about being judged for someone who doesnt know how to eat ice cream and take pretty pictures of carnival rides and flowers and the sea of salt and the streets of Paris. I want to stay up late, drinking hot chocolate and playing video games and building forts out of old sheets. I want to dress up without reason and dance to my favorite songs and read every book I own. I want to tell everyone in the world how beautiful they are and how much they deserve. I want to visit all the places I spent my days while I was young and tell stories about how much I've changed since then. I want to laugh and laugh until it feels as though my lungs might burst. I want to live each day like it has a purpose, because each day does.

And one of the saddest part of life is keeping yourself busy and pushing yourself to the limit all day and when you get home, lying in bed, you'll discover that after all what you've done to forget, you're still in that very same position you're trying to escape.

2011-08-08T13:16:00.001+08:00

2011-08-07T22:04:00.000+08:00

Ice Cream Lyrics

You talk to me
You speak with me
Don't sink before you rise baby
Don't fade away

You hesitate
You seem to wait
For all the time we had
Feels like a world away

Who's to say, we'll be ok
We will make it through the night
Don't wanna wake up in this state
I just want us both to smile

Cause we're the same
And I know that we'll never change
Look I bought your favourite ice cream
I don't wanna see it melt away

If you walk out now
I don't know if we're gonna be the same
Baby just talk with me
Cause I want you to stay here with me

The memories
The things we did
I locked inside my heart
Where I know I won't forget

And now, whos to say, well be ok
We will make it through the night
Don't wanna wake up in this state
I just want us both to smile

Cause were the same
And I know that we'll never change
Look I bought your favorite ice ream
I don't want to see it melts away

If you walk out now
I don't know if we could be the same
Baby just talk with me
Cause I want you to stay here with me

I want you to stay here with me

2011-08-06T23:45:00.006+08:00

Hello World,

Its been a week since i use the Sensodyne Repair and Protect,
and so i will continue about it!
If you haven read it yet, you can read it HERE!

On Saturday, met up with the bloggers again!
And its not even me okay , EVERYONE has all good things to say about this product!

Like for me, when i use right, its super painful when i take the cold and hot stuff together.
But now, when i take, i am super delighted that i dont have to like hesitate about
drinking or eating things that would hurt my teeth!

See this is all of us with our million dollar smile!

With Amanda from Nuffnang!

Okay , so you all would be like, CHEY , only you get ,
i read for what?

Fret not!

You are not left alone okay,
i am also very good one!

If you suffer from sensitive teeth, and do not know what to do,
fret not!
You do not have to suffer alone!

Go to the Facebook Page. And you can find solutions to you problems!
Also you can see the advices of dental professional giving the help you need!

Also, if you are interested and you want to get a free sample to try it ,
you can too!

By going to the website HERE!

You will be led to this page,
and you have to do is to click on the "Free Sample" at the bottom right hand corner!

And then after that, just fill in your particulars, and viola,
you are on your way to have beautiful teeth and smile!

Note: The delivery takes 2 weeks to be delivered!

2011-07-30T19:29:00.000+08:00

Last week was one of my closest classmates birthday!

Pictures(:

The very gay Ryan!

Love this pic(:

Birthday boy getting the fire ready!

BFF for life.

You will see a lot pictures of Ashwin!

People helping with the food . (:

Girls preparing the cards.

Polaroids

Awwww!

Ryan : Eh , i falling down!

Obviously this is not taken by me.

What is Celest doing ?

Girls are not the only people who camwhore okay!

Slow Syncro on the Cam.

Modern Couple, Traditional Setting.

With everyone!

And the dunking begins!

Model wannabe!

Thats how my Saturday was spent!

2011-07-30T00:37:00.005+08:00

I have been suffering from sensitive since like a year back,
and boy was i delighted when i was invited to this event.

Actually before i went, i already saw the advertisement on tv!
And i was like, i think i should buy!
But then i keep prostrating till like forever!

But well, i receive this!

So cute right!

What's inside!

Travel size tooth paste.

Amazing tooth brush!
Know why ?
You realise that the toothbrush i didnt take the tooth brush but the packaging,
but Sensodyne is really meticulous as well,
this toothbrush i was really afraid that it would hurt me as my gum bleed pretty easily ,
and know when i use it , it was so gentle to it!

Kudos to you!

Bigger box of toothpaste.

So you would be like, great you receive just a box filled with toothpaste and tooth brush?!
So what is so good about it ?

You realize that this is the only tooth paste that REPAIR AND PROTECT?

So more about it ,
this tooth paste is different.

They have a special formula that is patented NovaMin® technology, that forms a tooth-like layer over exposed dentine to help continually repair and protect sensitive areas.

Tiny channels in the dentine lead to nerve endings in the tooth

And so far i have been using it for around 5 days, so its okay .

When i brush my teeth, it has like this protective layer forming, and
its not very strong like spicy , but a gentle after taste.

I hope by using this for around a month, i get to see results!

Say no to sensitive teeth!

Get this:

2011-07-17T00:21:00.001+08:00

I don’t want someone to love me like Edward loves Bella
I don’t want someone to love me like a fat kid loves cake.
I don’t want someone to love me like Romeo loves Juliet.
I don’t want any of that…

I want someone to love me, like Severus Snape loved Lily Potter.

2011-06-16T14:47:00.002+08:00

THINGS A GIRL WISHES HER BOYFRIEND KNEW:

I want you to hug me from behind, unexpectedly.
I want you to give me your hoodie when I`m cold.
I want you to hold me and keep me warm.
I want you to cuddle with me and watch movies together.
I want you to kiss me in the rain.
I want you to hold my hands and play with my fingers.
I want you to play with my hair.
I want you to take amazing photos with me.
I want you to come to my house and meet my family.
I want you to lay on my bed with me and just hold me.
I want you to let me dress you up and make you look silly.
I want you to watch sunrise with me.
I want you to give me piggy back rides daily.
I want you to kiss my nose.
I want you to wipe my tears away.
I want you to tell me that you miss me already even if we were together five minutes ago.
I want you to drop everything and hug me tight.
I want you to take me on a picnic.
I want you to snuggle with me in the movie theaters.
I want you to squeeze me as hard as you can when you hug me.
I want you to smile every single time you see me.
I want you to know how much I love you.
I just want you

2011-05-04T19:26:00.004+08:00

I should win a pair of tickets to watch
the premiere of Pirates of the Caribbean because

i am a HUGE fan of it.
I like to attend Nuffnang events.
I like to be the first among my friend to announce, that i watch the show (A proud Singaporean moment)
At the same time, advertise nuffnang through word of mouth.
And its FREE!

“Catch Pirates of the Caribbean: On Stranger Tides movie starting from 19th May 2011 and join the official Disney Studios Singapore Facebook & Twitter page!”